Pain With Goodbyes

I hope the pain physically hurts you.. I hope you feel the pain down to your bone. I hope you never forget my laugh and that it's permanently ingrained in every inch of your brain and I hope once you start doing well that you start hearing it again. So fucking loud that all the music in the world couldn't drown it out. I hope it pains you I hope walking out that door and turning your back on me pains you, I hope it shook you to your very core. I hope leaving me was the worst mistake of your life, the kind you think about even after you're married with three kids. I hope it pains you I hope waking up in the morning and checking your phone for a good morning text from me, but not recieving one kills you. Because I'm still up with hardly any breath in my lungs because I'm wasting it all screaming your name to the sky, praying to God you hear me. I still cry your name every night because I knew what I lost when you left. I hope you feel the pain of your heart beating inside your head and I hope no pain medication can take it away. I hope our empty promises echo in your head like they echo in mine I hope it pains you.

[Originally Written Sunday, September 25, 2016]