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I think everyone has experienced the past coming to light.

The times where you feel triggered, flashbacks over and over and all you want to do is cry.

And I hate it, because how am I supposed to explain that I was sending explicit pictures because I hated myself. How am I supposed to explain that I don't know how many people recieved them. How am I supposed to explain that I became a little toy, despite the fact that people said I meant something to them. I know it wasn't true.

So I'm sorry some words trigger me, but I hope you understand.

[Originally Written Friday, November 25, 2016]