Boundries

I love sports. I love working out. I love testing my boundaries. I love pushing myself to the limit, to the point where I want to cry. Pushing myself to the point where I feel like I could just roll over and give it all up. To the point of wanting to give up. So maybe that's what I saw in you. Maybe it was the thought of just pushing myself outside my comfort zone just a bit farther. Maybe it was knowing this could bend and break me. Knowing that at any point I would want to roll over and give up. But I never gave up. I pushed myself and I gave it my all,I lost sleep over it, I just wanted it to end, I cried over and over again wishing you would do the same. Wishing that you would push yourself to the extremes like I had, I wanted you to do that for me. Maybe that's what I'm waiting for, maybe I'm waiting for someone to push themselves like I push myself. Someone who can stand by me and push me to do better and to be better. And I guess you weren't the one for that If you were, you'd still be beside me.

[Originally Written Saturday, April 30, 2016]