Control

I knew it when it happened, that I gave up control too fast.

I knew I was falling too quickly, and it felt like when you stand up too fast and you suddenly are jolted and you get tunnel vision and the light at the end of the tunnel was you and it was always you since I met you and last time I was the one who got scared and backed out and this time it was too much for you and maybe you thought I wasn't happy and maybe that was true. But in the end we both gave up. We gave up on each other and we gave up on control. We let ourselves fall and you were the one to get scared when it happened.

That's the problem with humans, we seek control and when we lose it...well, we lose a bit of ourselves too.

[Originally Written Friday, November 4, 2016]